happy thoughts

Happy thoughts through tough times is a must.

Not because life is always gentle,

but because some days, your mindset is the only thing standing between you and giving up.

The world will test your patience.

People will test your heart.

Circumstances will test your faith.

But choosing joy, even in small doses, is an act of defiance.

A laugh in the middle of chaos.

A deep breath when everything feels heavy.

A reminder that this moment is temporary.

Happy thoughts won't erase hard times,

but they can help you survive them.

today was a good day

I woke up feeling great today woke up before the alarm, body pain-free. Felt like the universe was finally about to shine on me, like today had a different kind of quiet to it.

I smiled for no reason. My chest felt light. No pressure on my ribs, no storm in my thoughts, just peace… the kind I forgot existed.

Today was perfect. Too perfect.

And then it hit me—

you never called.

No missed arguments. No heavy tone disguised as “attitude.” No emotional weight hanging off my shoulders like wet clothes I kept trying to dry.

For the first time in a long time, my energy belonged to me.

That’s when I realized maybe my bad days weren’t bad luck at all. Maybe loving you been draining the life out of me so slowly I confused exhaustion for commitment.

And damn… that hurt worse than heartbreak.

Because I was really out here thanking fate for a good day, not realizing the peace came from your absence.

Funny how I still missed you during the best day of my life.

vows

I didn't meet you the usual way

just a message on IG…

but somehow, it felt like more from the start.

We began with distance,

late nights and “I miss you,”

turning something small into something real.

And somewhere along the way…

you changed me.

You made me want to be better,

want more, do more

even step into a role I never saw coming.

Loving you made me ready

to love your children too

not as an obligation,

but as a blessing.

So today, I choose you

your love, your life, your family.

I vow to stand by you,

to be present, to be solid,

and to love you both

with everything I have.

From a message on a screen

to a life we’re building

I’m all in.

Guess whos back

 As a person that have recently decided to gave up social media i totally forgot I had this.

Allow me to reintroduce myself....

Im Anthony. "Ant" to the "ho" "ny"

Part time writer, lover by force the heart beaker wear by life.

Life been life in.

A lot to update

I found love. Lost it... found it again lost it again lol.

It been a good 15 years since my last blogging. I just forgot I had it. 

Im shall be more consistent on uploading. I got a lot to say and no one to speak to so I shall type it out. 

Stories of my life over the years  turned into words. 

Dear Heartbreak

Dear heartbreak, so we meet again.

I used to think I was afraid of commitment,

but when it comes to you… we go strong.

Some might even say we locked in.

And I hate that, heartbreak.

I hate how you keep finding your way back to me

like you got a master key to every lock I own.

I hate how you sit in my chest,

just waiting for your moment

to drop to my stomach.

I tried to outgrow you, heartbreak.

I tried to heal past you—

I even tried to find a replacement for you.

I found love…

at least I thought I did.

And love was good to me.

She was sweet to me,

treated me better than you ever did.

For once… I was happy.

I even bought her a ring, heartbreak…

…you would’ve been proud.

But you saw every moment, didn’t you?

Because love…

turned out to be you in disguise.

You just changed your name on me,

softened your touch,

made me feel safe enough

to forget what you felt like.

You learned patience this time,

learned how to smile in my face

before breaking me slower.

And I fell for it…

every single time.

Guess I never really left you, heartbreak—

I just met you in a different form.

accepting

Written from emotions when I was going through a breakup. Accepting what we had isn't us anymore. 

I had something good happen to me at work today.

I got promoted.

They told me it came with a pay raise—

I’m talking a difference in hundreds, not tens.

I picked up the phone, ready to tell you the news,

but then it hit me… you not my person anymore.

You not the one I see in the morning,

or the last face look for at night.

And if I don’t see you,

I call you, if i dont call you, i text you.

That part of me no longer exist any more.

I can’t even start my day

unless it started with you…

and that’s the part that hurt the most.

You were my Forgers in my cup, now everything just feel off.

Now I’m moving forward

but missing what I used to move for.

easy chick

Real talk I love me my easy chick  she be mad fun
I just find it hilarious whenever she start talking she's the one
"I be that wifey type," she be saying but me I'm just little curious
You let any nigga smash but you want a real man to take you serious
I just laugh at that thought, "Yo be mad funny"
You say you got standards but you compromise them for some money
I'm not knocking your hustle I'm not knocking your style
But if you put yourself in a situation don't get mad when the world starts talking about you foul.