1/18/2014

My mom like to tell a story about when I was four and got lost in the store. Now rather just freaking out cause I didn't know where my mom was at, I just thought to myself, "I know my way home, its a long walk but I know where home is." The reason I start with that story is this, even at a young age I felt like it was me verse the world.
So here's the update, I decided to move from Virginia (Hampton Roads Area) to Baltimore, MD. Why you got out the comfort zone? You ask. For someone I loved. Its funny how life works.
I gave up 1400 every two my own place, two dumb easy jobs for a job I didn't like (it was just good location) and to sleep in my car and crush on a friend sofa during the holiday (xmas and new years). Now I'm not complaining at all cause it was all worth it. Keep reading and its going to make sense.
Now when I first got into Baltimore I was a broken person a shell of the person I use to be. The only reason I moved cause I wanted to save my marriage even though I told people I had other reasons " Virginia is too small for me I need more." Now I got there I tried my best to repair what was broken. Now did it work? Ask her. Just don't call from my phone cause she won't answer if she see my number. Lesson I learned from that is this: When you say your going to hand your burdens to God, you have to let him do his work. Don't interfere just let it work out in you favor. God will never give you more than you can handle. Just trust in the lord.
In Baltimore I also got back into church. It was the same church that when I first accepted Christ as my savior. Unfortunately I leave Job Corps before I was actually baptized but I'm back there now.
Also I found how far I would go to be with someone I love. And most of all I found my safe again just a more mature me. No longer did I feel the need to want to hurt her so she can feel what I felt I just felt like hey why make someone a priority to make you feel like a option. Do I want to work things out? Yes but its not the end of the world if it don't... So with that in mind I'm at ground zero starting all over again job and finding a place.
Let me add the job I didn't like let me go like story bout that. So for two days I got let go Wednesday  (four if you count the weekend) I was jobless and homeless, only in Maryland I still have my place in VA (that's another blog). But that following I had a better job with more room to grow and more money (though I now don't chase money but it don't hurt any)
To be continued