1/18/2014

My mom like to tell a story about when I was four and got lost in the store. Now rather just freaking out cause I didn't know where my mom was at, I just thought to myself, "I know my way home, its a long walk but I know where home is." The reason I start with that story is this, even at a young age I felt like it was me verse the world.
So here's the update, I decided to move from Virginia (Hampton Roads Area) to Baltimore, MD. Why you got out the comfort zone? You ask. For someone I loved. Its funny how life works.
I gave up 1400 every two my own place, two dumb easy jobs for a job I didn't like (it was just good location) and to sleep in my car and crush on a friend sofa during the holiday (xmas and new years). Now I'm not complaining at all cause it was all worth it. Keep reading and its going to make sense.
Now when I first got into Baltimore I was a broken person a shell of the person I use to be. The only reason I moved cause I wanted to save my marriage even though I told people I had other reasons " Virginia is too small for me I need more." Now I got there I tried my best to repair what was broken. Now did it work? Ask her. Just don't call from my phone cause she won't answer if she see my number. Lesson I learned from that is this: When you say your going to hand your burdens to God, you have to let him do his work. Don't interfere just let it work out in you favor. God will never give you more than you can handle. Just trust in the lord.
In Baltimore I also got back into church. It was the same church that when I first accepted Christ as my savior. Unfortunately I leave Job Corps before I was actually baptized but I'm back there now.
Also I found how far I would go to be with someone I love. And most of all I found my safe again just a more mature me. No longer did I feel the need to want to hurt her so she can feel what I felt I just felt like hey why make someone a priority to make you feel like a option. Do I want to work things out? Yes but its not the end of the world if it don't... So with that in mind I'm at ground zero starting all over again job and finding a place.
Let me add the job I didn't like let me go like story bout that. So for two days I got let go Wednesday  (four if you count the weekend) I was jobless and homeless, only in Maryland I still have my place in VA (that's another blog). But that following I had a better job with more room to grow and more money (though I now don't chase money but it don't hurt any)
To be continued

Storm

They heard my story, they felt my pain, yet they lost cause i smile
Questions they ask me, "How can you smile when you been in a storm for some time now?"
I smile because I know this storm is bout to pass
I smile because I know that no matter how big the storm can get I have a God that is bigger
I smile because I can stand in the storm and even with the hardest rain, I don't have to worry about getting wet
Cause' I have a God that keeps me dry at all times
I can smile at times when others may feel that I should be depress
Because I trust in my God and know that he will never put a obstacle in my path that I'm not able to over come
While others may only see the things and people that i have lost, I only see the things and the people that are being removed cause they were blocking me from my blessing
Just because they started this race with me does not mean they are going to finish it with me
I'm able to smile because I know its the joy that you get from God and not the material things that matter
So while others may look at my situation and only see what it is, I see what it will be
So while y'all may see a storm, I only see mist

Shorty

Shorty had a problem jumping in and out of bed
She didn't care who you were, if you asked she gave head
If you wanted more than that, yeah she did that stuff too
Just push her on her back, drop your pants and begin to screw
Well time went by and shorty stomach was getting kind of big
Little did she know she was bout to have a kid
There was one big problem that she really had
She didn't know who was her baby's dad

swag out boredom

I make the ladies spine tingle and their hearts go wild
I'm the original others just jockin my style
I'm the best thats why I'm solo on the stage,
unlike lil wayne I actually check for her age
I'm a grown man's role models and I this is true,
and if I won't the bless man yeah I'll hate me too

these are my confessions:

I have something on my mind that I need to confess
I got a thing for old ladies with big saggy breast
now if this is wrong I don't want to be right
Oh yeah let me add I want to smash Betty White
I love her for her body and not for her fame
And if she give me an opportunity I'll make her say my name

Forever the protected of your mind body and soul
To have you back long after my hair is gray and my age is old
To be the wiper of your tears whenever you cry
Making you smile when I remind you how my girl is so fly
These are somethings that are part of my job
...I never give you my heart I was just rob
No name needed here you know who you are
This is a original poem by bless man for his rock star

the story of broke man tribute to money

You was there for me the jump
I don't know why but i treated you wrong
I throw you away, pushed you to the side
When she showed me her thong
You did everything for me
More then what I did alone
When I need a way to talk
You turned around and got me a phone
You only wanted to stay next to my side
But like a fool I kept you in the back
Now that you no longer here
I'm wishing i had you back
You got me everything I wanted
And gave everything i need
Please forgive me and come back
This right here is Hoody's plea
I see you with other guys
And how happy they be
I cant stop reminiscing
How that guy use to be me
I'm working so hard just have you again
Its like the more i work the more i pay
So this war i may not win
If only only i could go back in time
I would save you for sure
My life is not a happy one
Now that I'm poor.